susie bun wrote:I hope you will have buns of your own one day, but can understand you holding back just now - quite apart from the practicalities of a likely house move,
losing 3 pets in 3 years must have been really tough.
I'm sure little Inca
couldn't have been in better hands, and her little spirit lives on in a big way in what you do today for the fosters, and hopefully will do again one day for your own.
Thanks Susie, your words are a comfort
Yes losing Melody (pony) was pretty devastating. She'd been with me for 22 years and was my best friend as well as a much loved family member and my rock when life sometimes got a little tough
She died quite suddenly and without warning. I was quite lost for a long time after she left as I couldn't remember a life without her
It has got easier but I am not able to talk about her without ending up in tears (like now) and doubt that this will change going forward. Then we loved and tragically lost Inca
and then little Boysie (my other pony) died last Spring, he'd been with me for 18 years and was a soul mate to Melody. Like me, he was lost without her and since her death he'd had one illness after another and the previous year was hospitalised and almost died from spasmodic colic/a blockage
I believe we under estimated his grief and this upsets me greatly
With both ponies gone it was the end of an era for me
I know it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all but it does make me a little scared of loving again
I don't do half measures you see, I'm afraid it's 100% or not at all.
